2 days later

 Two days after I wrote the post about our friend, Warren, he passed peacefully at his home with al of us there. We had a memorial service for him at his house and spread some of the ashes where he requested. Zach  made up some fliers for it. I really am lost for words anymore. I know I will be dealing with a lot of other deaths like this in the future. For everyone on my Dad's side of the family(including my Dad) smokes.  Warren smoked for a long time and drank a lot of Pepsi. He was trying to cut back. His life style was a direct impact on his health . Then again you can get cancer even if you don't smoke or drink Pepsi. It was a short time we knew him but he was a good friend to us. His wife and kids next door will be moving soon. I'm hoping the life insurance policy is a good one. For he was to young to leave behind any of his social security for his wife.  I know he is no longer in pain. The prayer I prayed the night before had proven to come true. I prayed that he may not suffer anymore. I am getting all our death stuff straightened out. Because it was a horrific finding out that it is $3,000 to just pick up a body that has passed. Man o man I hate dealing with power of attorney stuff and life insurance and will's and deed's of trust. I say from now on be prepared because the last thing I want to do is deal with  not having enough money for a family members burial or even my own.

Saying Goodbye Is Never Easy.

   Well the last 8 weeks around here have been well honestly shitty, crummy and whatever other word you can fit in the sentence that describes troublesome. I've kept my noise in the background, well I have tried. I am not sure I succeed with that.  I've taken these opportunities of these feelings to make some further changes in my life in  a positive way. That might be a whole separate post though.

6 weeks ago my neighbor Warren was cutting down a tree and he fell off the ladder and scraped his right side. We all thought nothing of it, just a few scrapes. Well in the weeks to follow he continued to complain of symptoms that I thought might be diabetes.  So I tested him for that and he was showing that he didn't have it. To make a long story shorter his symptoms of not feeling well continued. I made a list for his wife to give to the Dr. so he could get his blood drawn. Warren's Liver enzymes came  back 3 times greater then the normal level.. In the last 3 weeks I have seen a man full of energy deteriorate into nothing. Last night he came home for the E.R and Candy his wife broke the news to us.. That he has weeks to live. In my heart I already new this. I have seen many sick people in my time. I know miracles can happen but once the cancer has taken over the body, it is rare to fight it. Even if it wasn't all over in his body, it is Liver cancer and there is no treatment. Warren is only 5 years older then Zach so the reality of all this is, well reality at it's finest. The treatment I suggest usually gets laughed at and it is not easy to get a hold of and well it's illegal, so there goes that idea!!!


The next few weeks/months ahead will be very rough on his family and friends. We all feel pretty helpless. It was very lonely out here before Warren came along. It will be lonely when he leaves. He is  a believer in Christ and knows that God has a plan for him. Please keep his family in your prayers.. That he can at least not suffer so bad in the future weeks. That the pain will  subside and he can enjoy the last days of his life being able to see the beauty in a flower.. When you are in so much pain it is hard to enjoy anything, let alone the simple things...

Please take this opportunity to tell someone you love them and care for them.  Life is short, don't waste it!

I was able to get some photo's of him and his kids a few weeks ago. He still looked pretty healthy..

I told Warren to smile he said,"I have no teeth", I said smile anyway, just don't show me your no teeth!